I
experienced God’s true, deep down love and joy this Christmas, it wasn’t in the
form of gifts given or received. It wasn’t
in the songs on the radio or the time I didn’t have to spend at work…although
all those things were nice, but instead it was being in the moments and pausing
as they happened. It was found in the
time I took to take in all that was around me, whether with others or by
myself, that God showed me Who and What He truly is.
As I sit
and think about this past month I can’t help but to tear up again at how much
God loves me and I pray with my whole heart that He will help me to remember
this time. Whenever I feel empty, sad,
lonely, frustrated and even angry…that He will call to my remembrance December
of 2015. I want to share some of what I
wrote to God with you in hopes that you will look back, or even currently see
in the big and the small, just how much God truly cares.
You
blessed me with a word of encouragement from a stranger:”…joy and peace
overflowing in her heart…”. This was just the beginning to what You had in
store for me, in fact I think this was Your way of telling me to open my heart
because You had some things to show me and some true love and joy to pour in.
You blessed me with a beautiful weekend with my mother
where I completely and totally enjoyed her love and presence. This is where You showed me that even though You
are my all in all, You also understand and realize that sometimes it’s the loving
touch and time with a loved one that fulfills that need we sometimes long
for. While there, You showed me my first
sunrise, which I can’t even begin to express in words. As the sun rose, You filled my heart and soul
with Your greatness, love, joy and true peace.
You blessed me with an answer to a long awaited prayer
of being able to spend time with and love on my bonus daughter and to see my
children experience that same joy. This
is where You showed me that You’re always listening, always caring and ever
faithful. Teaching me to trust Your
timing, Your will and Your way.
You blessed me with some of the most amazing time off
with my family for Christmas. A time
that I know to be all Your love and pure joy surrounding me. I loved every moment with my husband from
eating out, movies, shopping together, holding hands and talking about any and
everything. My children were happy and
content and it never ceases to bless my soul with the gifts they give me. Not because of the possessions or material
worth, but because it speaks to my heart that they know me so well. They know how much I love You and how they
don’t have to spend much, if anything at all, to make my heart smile.
YES…December of 2015, for me, was Your love towards me
and with my whole heart and everything that is within me I say THANK YOU
FATHER! Your love for me is so
unconditionally amazing, pure, faithful and true.
My
prayer for all of you in the coming year of 2016 is that you will take the time
to pause and enjoy the moments that God puts before you. I pray that He will open your hearts and pour
in a love so pure, a joy so fulfilling and a peace so calming that you will
have no choice but to know that it is Him. Happy New Year; 2016! May you be blessed and be a blessing!
