Well, I dropped my college student off Friday before last and I managed to keep the tears at bay on the ride up and when we left her, but I only made it halfway home before I couldn't hold them any more. And that Saturday, I was a complete mess; crying off and on all day! I told ya'll I was working on it..lol. Then on Sunday evening she called and we talked for about 45 minutes; she told me all about the great sermon she heard in church that morning with her friend and again I heard God say, it's going to be ok.
During my crying episodes that Saturday I realized that those tears weren't only for the fact that I will/do miss my daughter, but that they were also because of a bit of fear that I'm starting to feel within. I'm ready for this change and next step that God is taking me to, but I am also scared to take it. What if I fail, what if I don't measure up...what if I don't like who I am or what I have become? I'm doing my best not to allow this worry and fear to stop me though, I am still pressing on.
Looking towards my Fit To Forty I have started eating less junk and more healthier foods, this past Thursday I began my 21 day fix workout plan...and if I'm being real honest it's already turned into a "22" day fix. I have already missed a day of working out...sighs! But, I will extend myself some grace and say that mess up does not define me.
We also have something very special planned for our Random Acts of Kindness in honor of Richard this week too. Some of you may know that the anniversary of his going HOME is Wednesday the 24th and we are going to try and honor him in a big way by honoring some of the things that were important to him. I'll share it with you that day.
Have a great day and do something to put a smile on someone's face
No comments:
Post a Comment