The start of this school year, yes...my babies have started school already, has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. My two youngest will be starting middle school, (My bonus daughter hasn't started just yet) my middle child starts high school and my oldest will soon leave for college.
To say that I am a ball of nerves is truly a great understatement. I feel like my younger two are just too "little" to be in middle school and my middle child is just too "mild" to go to high school. Now my oldest I fully believe is ready for college, but....well, I'm just not ready for her to go! Granted she is only going an hour away, but to not see her every day I feel will half about tear me apart. Yeah....I know, I'm working on getting it together...sighs!
While dropping off my new high schooler this morning I realized that I was not going to be as busy as I have been in the years past. My oldest was VERY active with sports, clubs and a lot of other things, that my middle child just isn't into...which leaves some "idle" time for me. What will I do with this time; Will I be bored? Will I be sad? Will I be annoying to others with "my woe is me my child left me for college" attitude?
Then suddenly I felt a sort of calming come over me; I realized that God has plans for me during this time and instantly this gave me a bit of peace. I'm not sure what those plans are!?! I do know there are a few things that I used to do that I have let slip by the wayside and I also know that I can only expect great things from Him. So, with that being said I am looking forward to the days to come; praying that I see the doors God's opening and gracefully allowing the others to close.
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