Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV) 5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.
Some days are so much harder than others. Some days are so much more painful; like the nights when I’m rocking my 8 year old son as he cries himself to sleep because he misses his brother. Like when he looks at me through tear stained eyes and says mommy I hate to see my brother like this and the only words of comfort I can muster so that I don’t burst into tears myself are; I know baby, but we have to know that God is taking care of him even if we can’t see it with our own eyes. I try to explain to my baby that he can talk to God. That he can tell Him it hurts, he doesn't understand and that he needs God to comfort and hold him. I promised my son that He will because He said He will! 2 Corinthians 1:5 (NIV) 5 For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.
It’s heartbreaking when he asks when will he get to see him again and I don’t have a positive answer to give him because of some circumstances and with the distance between the two houses. Especially when for a while they lived together and grew so close to each other. After he finally drifts to sleep I crawl to my own little corner and cry my own tears of sadness and pain. How do I explain to his sweet little mind and heart that this is all according to God’s will and we just have to trust Him when I sometimes, don’t even understand it myself?? How do you help him to comprehend that God sees everything from beginning to end and that His ways are perfect? I know I can’t stay here sitting in my sadness and pain because this is not what God has for us but, for a moment…for a short time I want to just lay here and cry while God catches every tear that falls to my cheek and holds me while I can’t hold myself up.
I know that He’s here; I know that He is holding my son and I know that no matter what happens He will always take care of him, of all of us! I will continue on; praying, offering God’s words of comfort and trusting His sovereign will for our lives. I will not try to reason it out or use my words to try to explain away the pain. We will go through this difficult time together doing our best to put God at the forefront and leaning on Him through constant prayer even when we don’t have the words to pray because I know the Holy Spirit will intercede on our behalf. I don’t pretend that this is easy because it’s honestly one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but I know for my son…for all my babies and my husband this is what I have to do. I know that even when I can’t see or understand God’s plan it is still perfect and I will remain steadfast and holding on to His hand. I know the pain in this life is temporary, but life with my Everlasting Farther is eternal.
You are blessed because Jesus loves you!
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